Be careful what you wish for

Four months has come and gone. It was a blessing being able to stay at home and watch both my boys on a daily basis. There were days when I wished I could go to work just to get a break and now that I am back at work all I wish is to be home with my sons. I am blessed to have family who is able to watch them while I am at work. It makes me feel more comfort vs. having them in a daycare. However, I feel like I am letting them down by not being there for them 24/7. The struggles of being a mother and choosing/having to work. In some ways the boys will be better off by having a great relationship with their Grandmother and Nana. Also, the time we spend will be more quality time vs. quantity time with not so much quality. Plus they will build a strong relationship with their father because he will have one on one time with them when he gets home from work until I get home.

I am definitely cherishing my time with my boys more than ever.